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Nadya Suleman gives a shocking interview about her life with 14 children.

Octomom Nadya Suleman isn't winning any Mother of the Year awards any time soon.

The woman best known for having octuplets in 2009, in addition to her six other children, has given an interview in the new issue of In Touch Weekly, in which she admits some rather disturbing feelings toward her brood.

Feeling overwhelmed by the burdens of caring for a large family, Suleman not only says she wishes she never had them, but admits to have contemplated suicide.

"I hate the babies, they disgust me," the 36-year-old single mother told the magazine.

She also unleashes some vile words for her older children.

"My older six are animals," she says, "[They are] getting more and more out of control, because I have no time to properly discipline them."

Suleman gave viewers an inside look at her life in a TV special last year. (FOX)

Though it was once her dream to have a big family, Suleman's reality has turned into a nightmare now that she is broke and without hope.

"The only way I can cope is to lock myself in the bathroom and cry. Sometimes I sit there for hours and even eat my lunch sitting on the toilet floor. Anything to get peace and quiet," she says.

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Photos accompanying the interview are likely to raise concern with Child Protection Services. In addition to Suleman's house being in run-down condition, one child is seen eating dry-wall.

Suleman says she feels so defeated, she's considered putting an end to it all.

"Some days I have thought about killing myself," she says. "I cannot cope."

Octomom took her eight babies to a local park in May 2009. (Jason Mitchell/BuzzFoto/FilmMagic)

Though she insists she still has love for her children, Suleman looks back on the decisions she's made and says she wishes she never got pregnant in the first place.

"Obviously I love them - but I absolutely wish I had not had them," she says.

Suleman has been vocal about her struggle to support herself and her children. The unemployed mom has been facing foreclosure on her La Hambra, Calif. house since last year, and is currently on welfare.

"My bank account is overdrawn by $300 and I have no money to pay for the children's school, food or the mortgage," she confesses.

However, Suleman may soon get the chance to increase her income. She recently filmed an episode of a new HDNet celebrity dating show called "Celebridate," in which cameras will follow her as three regular people try to win her heart.